dame hurting...

hAIz toDay 2nd dAy oF my POly lIFe...hMmm...life gr8 in polY...guess so...but...im not happy...haix..think u all should know why..

haix...ever since she asked me to help her burn CDs ive been waiting 4 tat day to just see her for a few moments...but i guess i cant chouldnt talk much to her...cox...she dun wish to talk to me...all she wan is the cd..tats all...

so i tot of writing a letter to her...but...



i really...use my heart and wrote a 3 pages long...letter...haix....

and bURn the songs tat i thing she would like...use quite some time..updatin my songs...and think wat to give her...the songs...

today...after her chOir...i waited her in yck INteRChange...u know what...i handled her the CD plus the letter...

she just tOok tHE CD..and puSh Away THE lEtter...it fell to the ground...

as it fell...i could feel my hEArt SinkIN EvEn dEeper...INto HELL...

burning in pain in hELL...haiz...

i Was DAme hURt...i really USe my hEArt to write what im gonna tell her...

but she dun even seems to care...haix...

arg...i hate myself...why...whY WHY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i jus cant stop myself from luvin you...

hAix...sorry...really miss u lotz luv you...even tot u tREAt me like shit...

god bless....